Well today marks a new day. A new day marks for new things, and new things mean change.
Today's change is a big one.
To be elementary, I'm here to take this website more seriously. Or attempt, anyway.
First things first, you may have noticed it by now: an official domain! As much as I am attached to padoodlez, I needed something new. Padoodlez was a nickname a classmate gave me back in the fourth grade; however, so much as happened since then. I've grown since then. I'm not the same person I used to be. Thus not only to commemorate a rebirth of this website, but to symbolize the change I've gone through, we have a new branding of sorts!
It's based off of the french word "serein", albeit slightly altered. What does it mean you ask?
serein (n.): fine rain that falls from a clear sky, just after sunset; "serene", "clear"
The word reminds me of "sunshower", one of my favorite types of weather, along with slightly misty days, autumn, and thunderstorms. I added a 'g' to "sereign" because well for one, "serein" was taken. 😅 Two, the inclusion of the word "reign" adds a kind of almost royal element to it that I like! It's quite lovely, I think.
I hope you like it as much as I do.
If you type in 'padoodlez.weebly.com' still, don't fret! You should be automatically directed here! 😊
Thought I was done, hon? No, this is a bigger change than the renovation of July 20th.
Now it's time to throw some of that blog recategorization at 'cha. Partially to explain the names, partially to help keep track of them. Here you go:
a new day:
I hope you like everything, because I have never been more content with this website's content. For those who have stuck around, thank you, because I am eternally grateful.
Happy new year everyone! 🎉✨
Well, it's nearly half-way through the year, but... You know what I mean.
if you have been here for a while, you may be aware that i used to have a music page called "hit replay". needless to say, i miss it, so here's a short monthly favorites of sorts:
a short opinion: It was a lovely read for an afternoon; the story is compelling and the characters are interesting (aka I did like it). I wouldn't give it five stars, but it was a good read you know? I recommend it.
Click read more for a very not spoiler free more in depth review.
This may sound pretentious geez even the word pretentious sounds pretentious, but I'm attempting to live a more minimalist lifestyle. I love the clean look and feeling it gives off; it's quite simple and lovely. And after watching this video by Krist Soup -a sweetheart of a YouTuber, by the way- I was inspired to completely clean my room.
It illustrates the concept of cleaning a room to be so... free. Like that maybe if you got rid of everything unnecessary and left behind the important things, you'd be able to breathe a little easier.
I fell in love with that idea.
And so like all impulse decisions, I immediately -well, more like the next morning- headed to embark on this journey anew. I got three trashbags (which were apparently mint scented? i am not sure why they were but it was quite nice) for donations, trash, and recycling. Going through clothes, old papers, and trinkets collected from throughout the years was relieving and in a way, nostalgic.
As I'm typing this, there is still a slight mess... I haven't found a home for everything yet. In addition to that, what can I say? I'm a bit of a hoarder. It's a problem, really.
Let me get to the point. This website has become so big. In a way, I love it. It's e v e r y t h i n g padoodlez + sincerely-hope have been since their creation back in 2012; however, at the same time it's too much. My tumblr [ towertospace ] in comparison is more... me. It's nice and minimal, with all the elements of things I love, but presented in a way that I find more pleasing to the eye (most of the time, anyway!). The last update involved a big change: a new theme, loads of new pages, and a whole lot of finetuning.
This is part ii of this website's renovation. I call it the refinement stage. Part i involved the basic changes, part ii will just be a great deal of cleaning up. As I continue to write and edit for future updates (especially more blog content), I hope by the time it's done, you'll find this a place where you can breathe easier too.
// with love ; kimiko hope
*in a sing-songy voice* I've been gone for a hot minute, and it'll probably happen again because I suuuck~
Hey everyone! This happens every spring, in which this website goes on hiatus from around late January/February/March to late June. And it's for a good reason...
Okay, I am a procrastinator (was it not obvious?). But I'm a procrastinator in a way that it becomes an art form. Anyway, the first half of the year, it's not like my grades are bad- they're fine. However, by the second marking period, sometimes they slip and I need to pick them back up.
That is what spring is dedicated to. Spring is about bringing up those grades up, along with studying for finals and the AP test.
Aaaand that's why I was gone. Nothing exciting, sadly.
But what is exciting is the whole new look the website has whoo!
Before I proceed into the updates, there is bad news: sincerely-hope is shut down for good. Managing one website is hard enough, and I just don't have the time to have two. It has been inactive for about two years now anyway, it was inevitable... It just makes me a bit sad.
Then again there is good news: pages from sincerely-hope have been integrated here!
I've been thinking about doing that since, admittedly, 2014, but I thought it would be too much work. But it's 2016 and I did it anyway. There is a catch with all these new updates though: none of the blogs have new blog posts as of yet. Blog posts take a while to write, and I just don't have the time to write them in order to put this update out there before the wait became too long (i was supposed to be back a month/two months ago!).
Here are the updates, in bullet point form. Enjoy!
It's My Life:
All These Fandoms:
Books and Cocoa *RENAMED (i mean, kind of. i literally just took "of" off)!*:
A Collection of Links *RENAMED!*:
For Writers *NEW!*:
Writing Contest *NEW!*:
All Things Done *NEW!*:
Pushing Buttons *RENAMED/NEW?*:
Site Survey *RENAMED!*:
Where Else to Find Me *NEW!*:
And that's all the updates! This took a lot of time, work, and a bit of blood, sweat, and tears. I hope you enjoy the new and improved padoodlez, and I hope you have a great day!
// kimiko hope
p.s. remember that blog posts aren't out yet! they'll be out in a month or so, so come on back by then!
Back in elementary school, I used to keep a diary. My first one was a cute little thing, pink with a picture of Hello Kitty on the front and a matching lock + key, and pages that were all different colors. The perfectionist style of mine was prominent even back then, evidenced by how I rewrote several entries because I didn't start them how they "should" be started, i.e. with the phrase 'Dear Diary'.
That lock + key probably ensured the safest diary I ever owned... because every other diary/journal I kept after that was broken into.
I loved stationary with a fiery passion. Still do, actually (it's why I love back-to-school shopping). So when I got a new notebook -this time with a rapping teddy bear on the front that was ready to drop some hot BEATS- it wasn't out of the question that I was pretty excited.
Finding a perfect glittery purple pen, writing in that thing let me release any feeling that I couldn't hold in or couldn't tell anyone. It was a good outlet for pent up negative energy; as a small nine-year old dealing with small and sometimes blown out of proportion nine-year old drama it was a particularly nice system.
Extended family came to visit around this time. My family and them went somewhere nice for vacation, and I brought my diary with me because why not? I wanted to document every day, wasn't that reasonable?
This vacation wasn't just my family + extended family. It was also with the family of my childhood friend, a sweet girl. For the majority of the trip, I hung out with my friend (we are going to call her Ess) and a favorite relative of mine who was only a couple years older than me (we'll call her Cake). These people were two of my favorite people in the world.
One day, there was a moment in which Cake completely ditched me to hang out with Ess. That, along with something that she said, really really upset nine-year old me. Two of my favorite people left me, on a vacation we were supposed to be having fun, and were really rude about it? I didn't like it.
And so, I wrote it all in my journal. I wrote that I hated her. Did I mean it? No, but I was upset. I was mad. It was my journal anyway, I could write what I wanted. It's supposed to be private.
On the way back home I was holding my notebook with me in the backseat of the big 'ol car. This car was an entanglement of many legs and arms and a bit cramped, for it attempted to hold two families. As I fell asleep during the long drive, it become revealed to me later that during the period of which I was sleeping, Cake and her mother read every word I wrote about her.
Cake's mom made me apologize to her.
I am all for apologies. I hate conflict, I hate unnecessary drama that could easily have been avoided, I hate grudges. But one thing I did not -and still do not- believe in was apologizing for what I had written. Let me reiterate what I said earlier:
I was upset. I was mad. In a healthy way to take out this anger, I wrote out my feelings in my journal. For me, it was a good release. It was meant to be private, I shouldn't have had to apologize for feelings that were valid. They wanted me to apologize for something they should not have read in the first place.
This was only one of many breaches of my personal privacy. This, along with the other experiences, made me stop journaling altogether. Once in a blue moon I would find a random notebook and scrawl down jagged thoughts and made sure to hide it somewhere, but that hardly counts. I abandoned the concept of a journal, a diary, whatever because I knew that someone would read my thoughts.
Someone would read what I had written and in some way, invalidate my feelings.
I wasn't okay with that.
It's 2016 now, and as a birthday gift my friends gave me notebooks. They know I love stationary and art (I got some of those cool "older" coloring books too), and got me several notebooks and gel pen sets. Everything was so beautiful, and I loved it all, and gosh darn it I love my friends. When I opened my friend Nicole's lovely gift and it had this cute ornately decorated notebook that said "and so the adventure begins..." on it, I knew it was a sign. I was willing to try again.
I always loved the concept of a journal! The way you could document moments, ideas, and thoughts in such a personal way is so... intimate. I'm trying again. I want to learn + grow, and I definitely don't want to forget any of the best moments of my life.
The first entry has already been written, and alongside it I wrote a little list of what I, as a person, want to strive toward being:
Here's to the rest of 2016 and the rest of our lives ahead being good for all of us.
// with love ; kimiko hope
"...We like to be together, in the place where we belong." -6teen
So we were all sitting around the campfire, with the birthday girl at the head of the circle. One by one, we all told her reasons why we loved her, and why we loved being her friend. The atmosphere was so warm, we were all laughing, sitting and standing shoulder to shoulder. Someone even had a guitar and was singing.
It was so highschool-esque, man. Like right from a movie.
shoutout to Schmagster i love you
Have you ever thought about if your life was a TV show, what it would be like?
I mean imagine it: the episodes, the plots, the movie specials, the cliffhangers, the ships...
(Heh, we are not going to talk about ships. That's another story for another time.)
Welcome to my life the TV show (I mean you're already reading my life as a blog, so why not?).
Season 1, Episode 1: The Pilot
I remember when I first moved here. It wasn't a surprise, for if this move was like any of the others, the longest I would be staying was three years. We were bringing all of our stuff inside, and I was standing on the driveway when two girls came up to me and introduced themselves. It would turn out that we were all the same age, and we were all going to the same school. One of those girls would end up being a really good friend of mine (and honestly, my only friend for the first few months).
She invited me over to her house, where we sat in the backyard and talked. As we were sitting on her patio, she pointed as she told me about how she would put a hose at the top of her slide when her and her siblings wanted to beat the summer heat.
Season 1, Episode 37: Motorcycles and Rainbows
A year later, and I'm still in the same town. The teacher is assigning seats by alphabetical order. The girl in front of me pronounced part of my name wrong, calling me "Padoodle" (and evidently, the nickname stuck). The girl to my right on the other hand, would end up being one of my best friends. We both shared a love for reading, writing, Phineas and Ferb and the rubber ducky song. After reading The Landry News by Andrew Clements in class, we both wanted to start a class newspaper. She would be Leslie, and I would be Cassandra (we had this thing for aliases), and we were going to call it LesCass News. "Leslie" 's dad jokingly told us to change the name, since 'LesCass' had a bad word in it.
(I didn't get the joke until later.)
Season 3, Episode 6: It Happened on a Thursday
We're in middle school, and wow are we immature. A boy I recently met in chorus (after consistent insisting for him to join from Jill the year prior) lightheartedly claimed that he was going to audition for the school play, Peter Pan. One of us pointed out he would have to wear green tights, which was hilarious to us at the time, and we jokingly made up The Green Tights story.
let's just say the story was strange but beautiful
Jill would end up getting a crush on this boy later. So we made a bet, I had five dollars on him asking her out, and she had five dollars on that he wasn't. And he did. On a Thursday morning, in the cafeteria, he came up to our lunch table and asked her if she would go out with him.
She slipped me the five dollars she owed me on the way to class.
Valentine's Day Movie Special: Who Shot Cupid's Arrow
Oh we all know the story by now. But seriously though, there is no doubt that this would be a Valentine's Day movie special chick flick. #Jandon, the so called ship name of Jill and the bf, has broken up, and now he likes this other girl and is waiting for the right moment (aka Valentine's Day) while his best friend also likes the same girl. After a ton of drama that could've easily been avoided if they talked it out (I mean seriously, why didn't you talk it out?!), it all ends well.
Season 5, Episode 22: It Wasn't Supposed to be Like This
Pretty boy and Mickey are dating. To put it simply. (Oh, wait. You haven't met Pretty Boy yet! Long story short: he's a friend, he's a boy. And he's pretty.) They got together in the beginning of the school year, and now it's a month later and we are at homecoming. The theme is a night in Paris, and all the couples were writing their name on paper locks and hanging them on the wall. (The friend group fave was Brennathan, who wasn't together at the time but got together later on. Ironically, they had seven locks on the wall... To bad they broke up, since the gf went out of the country for a year.) Pretty boy is sitting at one of the tables outside of where the dance is taking place.
Mickey isn't with him.
She's been gone all night, because her friend didn't like him, and didn't want her spending time with him. It's a school dance, he had a girlfriend, and Pretty Boy was still alone.
p.s. they broke up later.
Season 5, Episode 34: Shut Up and Dance with Me
Homecoming of the next year! To be honest, I don't remember much... But I do know that we all had a great time. Since both of us didn't have dates, one of my best friends "proposed" to me (shoutout to the wife ily), and even though she didn't like dances, another one of my friends came out to the dance. I didn't know half the songs honestly, and when Geronimo came on I whispered to my friend that I only knew it because it was in an episode of one of our favorite shows.
Eventually we decided to sit down and rest, but the second we heard Sugar We're Going Down by Fall Out Boy play, we all ran back out to the dance floor. Some didn't know the words, and were failing to sing along, but we were all still smiling as we sang together.
Season 6, Episode 51: Humanity Against the Cards
We were at a birthday party. All the boys were playing video games, and all the girls were in the corner talking about ex-boyfriends with clammy hands, how pretty girls can be, and talking about people who used to be our friends. We played Cards Against Humanity (10/10 would recommend), and half of us decided to watch a zombie movie.
The other few went off into a different part of the room, still talking until the night ended. We talked about weird dreams (I had a dream that me and a couple of my good friends were all in this pickup truck, dressed up like we were in Taylor Swift's Bad Blood. There were explosions, we had knives, we were saving the world, and for some reason this entire building turned into sand) and when we were telling true scary stories, Mickey made a joke saying, "Wanna know a secret? I see dead people... Everytime I kill someone."
With half an hour left, she made a comment saying that the best conversations happened right before everyone leaves. I don't remember what we talked about, but she was right.
Sometimes, I wish I was one of those people who brought a video camera everywhere to record my life. I'd want to look back on it.
If your life was a show, would you watch it? If the answer is no, then you just might want to change that.
Live a life worth watching. Live a life worth remembering.
P.S. happy new year everyone!
Why does this happen every year?
Hi, hello, how you doin'? It's hiatus time, I have summer work I need to do. Go me and my amazing procrastination skills
I'll probably be back around September/October! Also, some people submitted stuff to me- if you are reading this (which I hope you are) I want you to know that I'm not ignoring you, I've just been busy!!Sorry about that... I'll respond when I come back.
anyway, so long, farewell. until we meet again~
Let's flashback to a girl named Elle
Who unknowingly, was in for quite a spell
And what's a story with no twist here and there?
Click "read more" if you dare...
The third installment to Who Shot Cupid's Arrow and An Arrow Shot to the Heart
Hi!! I'm back (yayy)!
I just wanted to make a little update before the big one that's coming in a few days!
But what to talk about? I don't really know, to be honest. In the last post I already stated what's coming up in the big update, so I guess I'll just tell you guys what's going on in my life right now?
Weeelll, school is over and done with. It has been for a week or two now, but finally. School is exhausting... Also, I got my GPA to go from a 3.40ish to nearly 3.60 (it's technically a 3.589. so close!!). I am almost at a 3.75, which is my goal.
My friend paid me to paint her this thing a while ago, and tbh I'm so proud of it it came out pretty good
I made a tumblr!! It's about time, amiright? Follow me here: http://sugarpeasontop.tumblr.com!
JURASSIC WORLD IS AMAZING! I saw it last week, and 10/10 recommend. Watch it. Jump out the window right now and run to the nearest theater- actually don't do that... The front door works fine.
Gravity Falls and Steven Universe come back on the same day I'm not ready
Okayyy I think that's about it! See you in a couple of days, check back soon~
i'm winnie, an average teen. aka i sleep too much yet i'm tired all the time.
a rambling of sorts
gather around i have a story
it's called fangirling
lonely hearts club
the olden days